Ephesian 5:17-21 NLT
17 Don’t act thoughtlessly, but understand what the Lord wants you to do. 18 Don’t be drunk with wine, because that will ruin your life. Instead, be filled with the Holy Spirit, 19 singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs among yourselves, and making music to the Lord in your hearts. 20 And give thanks for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. 21 And further, submit to one another out of reverence for Christ.
I am thinking carefully of what verse 17 is saying. To not act thoughtlessly but understand what the Lord wants me to do. These days, I have noticed how much I lived my life just for the sake of living it and then complacently and carelessly wait for tomorrow and do the same routines over and over again. The question now is where am I headed? I used to have direction, I thought my path was already straight but here came distractions and stony, thorny paths along the way, I was thrown off balanced and I felt losing the vision I once had. In turn, I have just unconsciously lived my life aimlessly.
My actions these days have been so foolish and dumb that I want to give myself some good and painful spanking and bang on the head. But who am I to hurt myself? It is God's role to admonish and reprimand me.
Good thing is it is vacation time so I have lots of time to think about my life, where it is going and why am I still living. I don't live for nothing. I keep on thinking about my future without realizing that the future I am waiting for has already started and it has started now. I don't want to look at yesterday anymore for it was already done over with and there's no point looking back.
God wants me to think and reflect on my life. And by His grace and mercy, do something meaningful and productive about it. It is not yet too late. I will remember to fill my heart with songs and music that glorify Him and always in everything give thanks to Him for everything that He has done regardless of my bad and questionable behaviors.
He just wants me to live my life to the fullest, the one that He planned for me to have.
